As a woman in my 30s, I’m often asked about impending motherhood. By ask I mean everyone assumes I have children or don’t want children because of my age. I even had my then gyno tell me because I’m “starting SO late ” I should “pause everything and work on having a child immediately” if I wanted children. Wow female Doc. Thanks for inserting your opinion into my uterus!
If I had a dollar every time I’ve heard “but you’re so good with kids why don’t you have any?", I would be spending those dollars at a nearby Sephora on skincare and Fenty highlighters. OKAY! In moments like those I no longer get frustrated. I 100% believe my life is purposeful. I haven’t missed my opportunity to have healthy kids because of my age. Furthermore, no one can make their opinions my reality. It’s why I love The Byrd’s song ‘Turn Turn Turn.’ There’s a season for EVERYTHING!
I can’t lie. There is a small part of me that feels guilty on random mornings when I wake at 8:00 AM knowing there are countless parents who don’t have that luxury. Their alarm clock is not internal but is a giggling, crying, talking child who requires attention, regardless of age.
I take heart in knowing that that season of my life approaches and the present is to be fully enjoyed. In the meantime, I give myself the necessary (guilt-free) time in my bed to mentally, spiritually and physically prepare myself for the day. Sometimes that means I'm stretching, listening to music, checking emails, drinking my lemon water while reading. It simply depends on how I feel in the moment...and I’m cool with that because “there is a season, turn turn turn...”